There’s no doubt about it. These insecurities get the best of me. I know I shouldn’t let them but it’s hard when they have a tight grip. They know just what buttons to push to turn me into a monster. Causing me to ruin things that mean the most to me. There is no question that the waves of guilt wash over me like a tsunami trying to drown me. I’m honestly such a mess and I’m so sorry for all the pain and stress I’ve caused on him. The thought of him leaving though has me running scared. I love him more than I can ever express. I want to be with him forever like he says, but these insecurities got the best of me. I know if I even want things to work I’m going to have to break free of them. That’s why when I return home, hopefully we can talk and work things out. For if he ever leaves I’ll surely drown. I love him with all my heart and I hope he still loves me too and stays like he promised.
So after seeing so much One Direction on my dashboard, it slowly as me wanted to know more. A week or two ago I watched my first One Direction video One Thing and today on quizilla I came across a fanfic about Niall Horan and can I just say, ADDICTED! It is absolutely amazing and I am now waiting anxiously for the author to post the next chapter. From the little bit of One Direction I’ve been dabbing into, Niall is most definitely my favorite. From my dashboard to the video and now the story. And sometime later tonight or tomorrow I plan on watching many more videos and become more ‘in tune’ I guess you could say with One Direction. Anywho, that is all, just wanted to share my new interest.
For anyone who’s watched The Gray, did you know that after all the credits it gives a little clip of after the fight? Where in my opinion they either both died or Liam actually defeated the alpha and lived? Yes, it shows the wolf’s chest moving up and down like in the beginning of the movie when it showed him shoot the wolf, however if the wolf had defeated Liam he would at least got up and moved so Liam’s head wasn’t resting on top of him to show his strength. Instead I believe the alpha was on his dying breaths and either 1) Liam also died or 2) ‘Cause he managed to defeat the alpha the pack might of saw him as the head alpha thus allowing Liam to leave. This however is just all my opinion and I like to believe the second. But yeah, was just wondering how many people actually saw the tiny clip after the credits.
My boyfriend’s so sweet. I’m playing Runescape with him (nerdy I know) and he makes me a Sapphire ring and goes ‘Runescape marriage!’ He’s too sweet. He knows I want a Sapphire ring but can’t get one right now. So yeah, I just thought it was super cute and decided to share. I love you B.E.B.♥